Turn Left or Right~ The Road Ends Ahead!

The road ahead is ending, so you have to turn! UGH, why do I always manage to find the roads that come to such an abrupt end?

The scratches healed, the cat survived and my granddaughter went home to Momma. So now all is quiet and I am missing her! It is so funny how I am; when I am in the middle of it I have a hard time feeling the appreciation of it all, but when I take a step back, and miss, then it finally comes into sharp focus and I realize how much I do appreciate even the trials in life.

Now that time has settled down and company is gone, I am going to sit down and try to figure out a few things.

Where do I want to live? Who do I want to live with, and does it have to be so darn complicated? No it doesn't, I am the one making it that way, I have to just be still and wait. I will wait for the right moment to tell me which direction to go in. I will wait for a sign that tells me "this is good" and until I get that sign I am just going to keep doing what I am doing now.

There is never a reason for a sudden or abrupt move, I can just let it perk, let is simmer and slowly it will be the right direction. My biggest problem with life is I have always been in a hurry; rushing to and fro, trying to do the right thing, be in the right spot, wear the right clothes, have the right job. It is overwhelming always searching for correctness~ So this is my goal today, right now, as of this moment in time I am going to just let it come to me. Enjoying each and every moment of my life as it unfolds. Smile, big wide happy smile. I will not worry about the fork in the road or the dead end street, not a problem. Today I am just going to walk down that street looking at the flowers and the birds. Seeing life, seeing my life and my joy and my happiness all around me. It is a joyous time it is a good time and The road up ahead will be there when I get to it!

Summer Time Giggles, Quilts and Running

Life can get crazy at times, I mean really really crazy, and when it does I have to stop, and take a look around for a giggle. Sometimes when I am looking for a giggle I go to the greeting card section at any drug store, grocery store or mega conglomeration world dominated store~ Whatever~ But I will just start reading the cards, I start in the humors section and get my fill of giggles. Cards help us make fun at ourselves and loved ones, on the art of growing older, getting married, retiring, having babies, graduation, and any other of many reasons to celebrate and send a card!

My favorite ones are the silly pictures of dogs, cats, monkeys, zebras, elephants, etc doing human things! A good laugh at just the picture; or, imagining the work that goes into taking the picture can give me a good laugh! I also love Maxine, she is a kick, talk about growing old gracefully, NOT.

Yesterday I was at a mega store laughing out loud! Seriously out loud, and a man peeks his head around the corner, and said" We have got to stop meeting like this" I was slightly embarrassed, but had to laugh, I had seen him at the same spot just a week earlier. I think he is on to me and my pep talks to myself as I search out my inner joy on days when it is hard to find!

Well I suppose it could be worse he could find me at the local Pub drowning my sorrows. I am so glad that my joy is with me, even if I do have a small search on occasion.

So the reason for my search for the giggles is getting back up on the "Running horse" no not literally, but I am back to my running joy. I have been reaching burnout stage on the quilting and with summer here it is really time for me to get back up and run again. I have been looking through my marathon training stuff and thought it is time for a half marathon. I have not found the one I want to run yet, but I am going to start training. I think early to mid fall, I will keep looking as I get in shape for it.

Quilting will continue but I think the fresh air focus is going to be good. In honor of it I am working on designing a runners quilt block with giggles in mind!

happy giggles to you, Marybeth

Love is Joy, Just spend time with a 3 year old

I have been spending time with my granddaughter, really spending time with her. It is amazing how much joy I have found. Today we played super hero's. I had no idea how to play and she told me, "just let you hero go Grammy" Wow what a jolt of reality! Just let my hero go! So I had the best time making my super hero, "Shampoo Man" into the greatest hero of all time! And his side kick Conditioner girl! We laughed, you know that baby belly laugh that kids can do! It was amazing and then she wanted to snuggle and brush my hair and I brushed her hair. We just had such a great time!

Tomorrow I go back home to adult things, sewing deadlines and adults, sometimes angry with out even knowing why! I will take with me my Super Hero and his sidekick, to try and keep the innocent joy of love and the ability to let go of all the "stuff" that manages to clog down my day.

My poor little Granddaughter is going through a really really tough time in her young life, her dad dropped out of the picture, with out notice or warning, well at least to her. She does not understand. Her Momma has lots of things to work through, like bills and jobs and day care! It is a very tough time for all, but I know the importance of Keeping the super hero close at hand, to let him clean out all of the "dirt" that keeps our joy hidden, and our love buried.

My Daughter is smart, she will over come, she is a good Momma, her daughter loves her very much and reminds her to play, I am hopeful. I talk to her and tell her it will get better, life will move on, just keep the heart of a 3 year old and keep the joy close at hand, the rest will work it's self out.

So get off the computer and go play and learn to find joy, at least for the rest of the day~